So it is earlier than 5 this morning when Belletje says to me, wake up!
And bleary eyed I look up at her and say oh no belle is too early
"pee pee mama"
oh belle, its sleepy time
but when you are potty training anytime they ask you have to take them right
so off we go to the potty.
and she does go pee pee. yay Belle
back in bed, "downstairs mama"
No belle, its too early
you have two choices,
in your own bed and mama pat pats
or in mamas bed very quiet and no nursing.
so she says "mamas bed"
a few minutes later she says, "those are mama's choices" I say yes, now shhh
she says
"not Belle's choices"
oh she is a smarty pants :)
so suffice to say, we were downstairs and nursing at 0530 cause I couldnt stop laughing at her logic.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
My Belletje
I know that I am pms ing or msing or whatever you call it when your hormones make you crazy. but...
yesterday Belle and I had a lovely day, in fact we had a lovely weekend together, and I felt like I was doing an ok job with getting her down to sleep without the boob.
We are working on trying to get Belle to start off in her own bed and stay asleep in her own bed all night. sometimes it works and sometimes it doesnt. mostly getting her to sleep isnt my issue (for Tammy, there isnt any problem at all, she walks up cheerfully, does her little routine, plays in bed for a bit and conks right out) but for mama...
so yesterday we had had this really quality filled day (i thought, lots of fun together and time. we went to have drinks with J and A, and Belle got all jacked up on J's apple pie and chocolate milk. and then a cookie (i guess perhaps I should have seen the problems coming), not to mention that I had a leaded cappucino at 1530 in the afternoon.
after dinner, we went upstairs and belle took her bath, i actually stayed out of the bathtub, but sat on the edge and watched her. I was all like "oh she is such a sweetie girl, look how sweet.." and saying to Tammi "i dont want her to grow up"... and she got out and brushed her teeth and got her diapers on and pyjamas, no issue. went downstairs to nurse, still no issue. that went well and i asked her, are you falling asleep "yes" so I said, ok time for bed, you and me
"pat me mama?" of course Belle. so I took her up and she went in nicely (she loves her jammies that cover her feet and legs) and we read first Paddington and then her Twinkle book,. she was in the crook of my arm and I guess that should have been my first hint that it wasnt right (normally she lays down when I read to her).
after book was over time to lay down and pat. and she twisted and turned and talked and moved and put her feet on the ground and talked, and I had to keep saying, quiet time, lay still, do you want me to keep patting you?
after about an HOUR, I was so angry I cuoldnt stand myself. I mean mad. and of course mad at myself too cause, why am i mad, of course she doesnt want to go to sleep, why would she want the day to end. but it didnt stop my being mad.
so i had a few times where i got up to leave and then she cried and cried and cried. and finally, exhausted she fell asleep. by then I was so pooped and pissed that all my plans for the evenign were shot. (which just goes to show you, that 1. you cant make plans, and 2. there isnt any point in getting angry, it doesnt help anything, and just makes me feel miserable.
which i did and still do a bit.
this mornign she then climbed into bed with me at 0500. which in and of itself actually is a good thing, as she slept through the night and only woke me up at 0500. so i probably need to get a glow in the dark clock to put on the wall, to show her and say, not time to get up yet. but i will just put that on my list.
in the meantime, I am exhuasted, snuck away to A's house to take a nap (thank you) and now am at work with a splitting headache.
i hope she falls to sleep alright tonight and stays there after I get home, cause i need to get rid of more sticky stuff on the windows,.
off to do the stuff they pay me for now.
yesterday Belle and I had a lovely day, in fact we had a lovely weekend together, and I felt like I was doing an ok job with getting her down to sleep without the boob.
We are working on trying to get Belle to start off in her own bed and stay asleep in her own bed all night. sometimes it works and sometimes it doesnt. mostly getting her to sleep isnt my issue (for Tammy, there isnt any problem at all, she walks up cheerfully, does her little routine, plays in bed for a bit and conks right out) but for mama...
so yesterday we had had this really quality filled day (i thought, lots of fun together and time. we went to have drinks with J and A, and Belle got all jacked up on J's apple pie and chocolate milk. and then a cookie (i guess perhaps I should have seen the problems coming), not to mention that I had a leaded cappucino at 1530 in the afternoon.
after dinner, we went upstairs and belle took her bath, i actually stayed out of the bathtub, but sat on the edge and watched her. I was all like "oh she is such a sweetie girl, look how sweet.." and saying to Tammi "i dont want her to grow up"... and she got out and brushed her teeth and got her diapers on and pyjamas, no issue. went downstairs to nurse, still no issue. that went well and i asked her, are you falling asleep "yes" so I said, ok time for bed, you and me
"pat me mama?" of course Belle. so I took her up and she went in nicely (she loves her jammies that cover her feet and legs) and we read first Paddington and then her Twinkle book,. she was in the crook of my arm and I guess that should have been my first hint that it wasnt right (normally she lays down when I read to her).
after book was over time to lay down and pat. and she twisted and turned and talked and moved and put her feet on the ground and talked, and I had to keep saying, quiet time, lay still, do you want me to keep patting you?
after about an HOUR, I was so angry I cuoldnt stand myself. I mean mad. and of course mad at myself too cause, why am i mad, of course she doesnt want to go to sleep, why would she want the day to end. but it didnt stop my being mad.
so i had a few times where i got up to leave and then she cried and cried and cried. and finally, exhausted she fell asleep. by then I was so pooped and pissed that all my plans for the evenign were shot. (which just goes to show you, that 1. you cant make plans, and 2. there isnt any point in getting angry, it doesnt help anything, and just makes me feel miserable.
which i did and still do a bit.
this mornign she then climbed into bed with me at 0500. which in and of itself actually is a good thing, as she slept through the night and only woke me up at 0500. so i probably need to get a glow in the dark clock to put on the wall, to show her and say, not time to get up yet. but i will just put that on my list.
in the meantime, I am exhuasted, snuck away to A's house to take a nap (thank you) and now am at work with a splitting headache.
i hope she falls to sleep alright tonight and stays there after I get home, cause i need to get rid of more sticky stuff on the windows,.
off to do the stuff they pay me for now.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
FW: letter to my mommy
-----Original Message-----
From: au pair
Sent: Monday, July 12, 2010 7:33 PM
To: the mama
Subject:
Dear Mommy,
"I good nap. I went walk."
We found rectangles, circles, squares, triangles, and even a hexagon on the street and sidewalk pavers.
We bought more bubbles. I blew bubbles on Westerstraat and put smiles on everyones faces.
I tried something new for dinner- tofu-lentil cakes- and I loved them so much I even ate most of Tammi's!
After dinner we colored the playdoh with pretty colors.
We took O.G. for a walk in the rain. I used my yellow umbrella. Angel jumped out of the kitchen window and walked with us. Silly kitty. I sang " I'm singing in the rain, I'm singing in the rain, I'm happy, I'm happy!"
I love you, goodnight.
Belle
From: au pair
Sent: Monday, July 12, 2010 7:33 PM
To: the mama
Subject:
Dear Mommy,
"I good nap. I went walk."
We found rectangles, circles, squares, triangles, and even a hexagon on the street and sidewalk pavers.
We bought more bubbles. I blew bubbles on Westerstraat and put smiles on everyones faces.
I tried something new for dinner- tofu-lentil cakes- and I loved them so much I even ate most of Tammi's!
After dinner we colored the playdoh with pretty colors.
We took O.G. for a walk in the rain. I used my yellow umbrella. Angel jumped out of the kitchen window and walked with us. Silly kitty. I sang " I'm singing in the rain, I'm singing in the rain, I'm happy, I'm happy!"
I love you, goodnight.
Belle
FW: today, 7/14
Today I slept in my bed for my nap and I am going to sleep in my bed all night tonight.
After my nap Tammi and I took O.G. for a long walk. We saw some birds in the canal and we didn't know what kind of ducks they were. Then one of them flew away and we saw it was a seagull!
For dinner I helped Tammi make pad Thai - we saved you some. We put nuts in a bag and I got to smash them over and over. It was fun! We made 13 pieces of meat for me and you but I ate them all!
When we to O.G. for another walk I brought my little white plastic dog and dragged it behind me. I also had a big bib on backwards so it could be my backpack, like on Dora.
Good night, I love you, I'll see you in the morning.
Belle
Here I am walking my dog and taking her to the potty:
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Update on Boo in Florida
Belle and I are tired and tired of transitions, but overall doing well. We have been in Florida for a week today, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday we went to Disney. Wow! I totally don’t remember how exhausting and busy that place is. But Belle loved it. She got to hug her Pooh and Tigger and Eeyore. And we went to It’s a small world, and did Peter Pan’s Flight. We went to the animal kingdom, which is actually quite mellow in comparison to the rest. But she fell asleep in mama’s arms on the train ride back from the affection station (petting zoo). So we left at midday.
Her relationship with her Opa and Oma is amazing. She is so empathetic and loving with everyone, and so happy and playful most of the time. Yesterday for the 3rd time in this week, she disappeared for abit. I said, she has gone to make a poo. And sure enough she came back with a naked butt, saying Oma come… She had started to poo in her pullup, but went to the toilet by herself, got her seat out and her stool and took her diaper off climbed up to finish her poo in the potty. Then wanted us to come see it.
Last night, we went to the pool, and she didn’t want her puffy arms on, so we went in without them. And she is trying so hard to swim really swim… amazing. I hope that they let her in the pools on the boat, as I have just read that no diapers or swim diapered children allowed in any pool. I am sure I can figure something out, I have already checked, and our first stop in the Azores, has a salt water pool by the marina, so we will go there right away (even if she can swim on board).
Just thought I would give a litte update. Sorry it seems so braggy, isnt my intention, but I am proud of my little Boo.
Her relationship with her Opa and Oma is amazing. She is so empathetic and loving with everyone, and so happy and playful most of the time. Yesterday for the 3rd time in this week, she disappeared for abit. I said, she has gone to make a poo. And sure enough she came back with a naked butt, saying Oma come… She had started to poo in her pullup, but went to the toilet by herself, got her seat out and her stool and took her diaper off climbed up to finish her poo in the potty. Then wanted us to come see it.
Last night, we went to the pool, and she didn’t want her puffy arms on, so we went in without them. And she is trying so hard to swim really swim… amazing. I hope that they let her in the pools on the boat, as I have just read that no diapers or swim diapered children allowed in any pool. I am sure I can figure something out, I have already checked, and our first stop in the Azores, has a salt water pool by the marina, so we will go there right away (even if she can swim on board).
Just thought I would give a litte update. Sorry it seems so braggy, isnt my intention, but I am proud of my little Boo.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Moving
In 6 very short days, Belle and I will embark on another adventure. Moving back to Enkhuizen after 7 wonderful months here in the US of A. Bittersweet to say the least. We will miss our David and our wonderful times at Elmos and the Farmers market. We will miss Sara and the Omas and Opa. Mama will miss her wonderful colleagues in NC and that beautiful environment at Keystone that I treasured. Belle will miss The Enrichment Center, wow what a wonderful preschool.daycare.nurturing environment.
But we get to take a cruise back. and we get to bring Tammi with us! and have 14 nights of wonderment on the way home. we will get to be with Ageeth and Jaap and the boys again. We will get to experience a new school with an old new language. Mama will reconnect with the simplicity of life in a small town. perhaps Mama will reconnect with Jacq and the girls. and maybe with my newfound peace, will meet some more potential friends.
we have the summer to enjoy and transition, and then Stephanie should be joining us and Tammi going back home. I hope that goes well.
I am sad and hopeful.
But we get to take a cruise back. and we get to bring Tammi with us! and have 14 nights of wonderment on the way home. we will get to be with Ageeth and Jaap and the boys again. We will get to experience a new school with an old new language. Mama will reconnect with the simplicity of life in a small town. perhaps Mama will reconnect with Jacq and the girls. and maybe with my newfound peace, will meet some more potential friends.
we have the summer to enjoy and transition, and then Stephanie should be joining us and Tammi going back home. I hope that goes well.
I am sad and hopeful.
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